Recovery

The last couple of weeks have brought with it their fair share of hardships over here.  I have been in a considerable amount of pain which brings with it lots of sedating medication which takes time away from my family.  I hate feeling like I am not being a mom and wife when this pain sneaks up and attacks.  

I have to say that I have the best, most wonderful, most understanding husband in the entire world.  He has been there with me through all of it - not once questioning me or telling me that I was just being a baby about the whole thing.  I like to think that I can push through the pain of a migraine or sinus issue, but this was beyond anything that I have experienced before.  When I finally decided that a trip to the emergency room was necessary, there was so much pain I couldn't tell them where it was or wasn't.  My entire head and face was pulsating with pain. After the ER trip, I stayed heavily sedated until my husband and I decided that I needed to find the actual cause and resolve it rather than simply sedate myself.  Basically, I tweaked a nerve and strained some muscles in my neck while sleeping (I am so talented) which was causing multiple migraines.  For those of you who suffer from migraines, I think that you can understand the pain.  Rather than one migraine with isolated pain, I was suffering multiple migraines at the same time in different areas of my brain.  I have the BEST doctor ever!  He was able to actually diagnose the issue, and prescribe the correct injections and medications to start correcting the problem rather than just relieve the symptoms. 

After the trip to the emergency room when the pain was finally beyond my ability to cope, and a couple of visits with my doctor I am beginning to feel better.  The pain is within a tolerable limit so I can spend time with my family and work. 

I am behind in getting my goodies out to my swap partners for the bead swap hosted by Lori Anderson and the button swap hosted by Cindy Wimmer.  I will finally be able to get everything together and get the goodies in the mail tomorrow.  I must say that my partners have been extremely understanding during what seems like a lifetime of being down.  

Prior to getting sidelined, I started my first art journal and was able to get some pages completed.  I wanted to create pages with pastels, watercolors and bright cheery springtime colors, but it was forced and I would stare at my journal without getting anything actually accomplished.  I have learned that I am not a pretty, bright, cheery color kind of artist - at least not right now - and have come to terms with that.  I am getting out some old feelings that have been hidden way deep down inside but need to be released so that I can heal and renew.  I have a feeling that those bright, cheery pages I was looking for will come with time as I heal those old wounds.

Now that I am beginning feeling better, I will be able to continue this journey and hopefully share some of those pages with you.  Also, I can't wait to get my goodies from my swap partners and start creating from those as well.  Who knows what I will come up with this time... This weekend will be full of studying for my final exam in my statistics class and baseball games with my youngest son.  Getting back to normal will take some time since there is some residual pain, but I look forward to continuing my recovery.  

Much Love 

Shell