I missed my goal of two blog posts last week, which makes me feel sad and disappointed in myself.
I would also like to apologize to my readers for my posts recently. Sometimes life brings me down and I need to just get it out so that I can feel heard or just release it from inside myself.
There has been so many things that have happened over the course of a week. I told my friend Friday night that we don't need to watch the Lifetime Movie Network because our lives are enough of a soap opera already.
I found this photo on Pinterest and it describes one small part of my friendship with my best friend.
Have any of you ever felt that everything was piling on until it felt that you were going to fall under the heavy burden? That has been how the last couple of weeks has been. I have felt that there has been such a heavy burden placed on me that it has almost crippled me. I feel as though of all those involved that I am the only one that is taking the situation to heart. The only one to be considering consequences and future steps. I have pushed through simply because as a mother and wife I have to push through for the sake of everyone else. How many of you do the same? I would so much rather just curl into the fetal position in a dark room and have a good long cry but life moves forward even if I am not ready for it to.
It is during these darkest hours that I try to remember the things that make my life wonderful. The things that have given me purpose and a reason to move forward.
Like my boys
and I try to remember that
and that everyone should
I know that this feeling is only temporary. These feelings of melancholy are few and far between. My life is wonderful and more than I could have ever hoped for. It is these moments that far outweigh those of trouble that I try to focus on. These moments are those that give me fuel for the days that I feel that I just cannot take one more thing.
So I choose to let the burden push me to my knees.. so that I can unburden myself at the feet of the Lord, so that He may give me peace and guidance. So that I may feel Him with me as I continue along my path. And you, my dear readers, I simply ask for encouraging thoughts and prayers for my family. Difficult decisions lay ahead in the coming months.